happy new year

I never want to look back again on the events of 2010 2012.
I can't escape what's in my head.  

There's no repentance when I've served my sentence.
The candle's burning at both ends. 

 

Winter's cold and I'm dreading coming home,
far from anyone I know at all.
Never felt so alone
because the hope of Spring died with the Fall.

I can finally feel content.
I can't help but smile when 

I know things can't get worse than this.
I see things clearly and I loved them dearly.
A timeline stained with tragedy and death. 

 
The clock keeps turning faster when
the candle's burning at both ends.

Rub these dark circles from my eyes,
a brighter future's on the rise.
I'll leave commitments pending.
The worst year of my life is ending. 

I watch the dates expire, caught in a flicker of a fire. The hands are turning 'round,
the hours counting down, and it's all over now.
All that I had burned to the ground.
All that will never be,
I watched it die in front of me.

A living nightmare was born in this year.
There are dark clouds all around me
and I couldn't see the sun even if I tried.

The hope of spring died with the fall...